And in that moment, I swear we were infinite.

FREE BROWNIES.

2012-02-13T21:55:00.001+08:00

Last minute brownies for my class for valentine's day tomorrow! (: Other friends if you want just look for me! While stock last (cause it's only 15x10cm damn small). :D

This week's gonna be pretty eventful for me (ie. busy)!
1. 4 tests! :O
2. Bernice coming back NY to visit Shane and i on wednesday! POTATO DAY!
3. 1038 dinner on friday night!
4. Meeting huiting on sunday HURHURHUR.

I wanna talk about my work too! (: Stay tuned!

(:

2012-02-10T21:45:00.015+08:00

Life's good!

Uturning was prolly the wisest/best decision i'd made. (: Understand so much more things compared to last year, with better explanation from the tutors, clearer notes, better time management (lotsa free time daily now to revise or write extra essays), and my tests results currently all managed to hit a B.

PRAISE LORD! Everything is going so smoothly for me. (: No wait, 99% of the things actually. (If you know what.) Anyway, KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK SABBY! Hoping to do well for block test in 5 weeks! (:

'You know that place between sleep and awake; that place where you can still remember dreaming? That's where I will always love you. That's where I will be waiting.'

2012-02-05T13:10:00.004+08:00

//

Anyway, finally done watching 《步步惊心》. 每个人的结局都好惨. :'( 假若当年若曦没有对八爷说过那些话，八爷就不会算计四爷，十三爷不会被幽禁，四爷就不会争皇位，若曦也不会因为求情而落下病根。这一切的一切，假若一切都没发生，只有四爷和若曦，简简单单地在一起，没有勾心斗角，没有皇位之争，结局也不会这么悲凉。Why didnt the producer/script-write let the "modern" 四爷 recognise 若曦!?! :'(

I Fell In Love With A Porcupine.

2012-02-03T23:55:00.001+08:00

I rather get physically-tired than emotionally-tired.

Only monday was great! Spent the rest of the week pretending im okay, infront of 1131 and all the juniors/teachers. So except for Jas/Kat/Shane, no one knew i was upset, no one knows me well enough to know how im feeling with just a look.

I keep saying school's fine, im not lying actually, the classmates are really nice and academically-wise so far so good im doing well, everything seems to be going really smooth for me so by right i should be happy but i dont feel good inside. Not at all.

Kept tearing (or want to) whenever i hear certain songs or when someone said something which i could relate to. Come home everyday feeling terribly upset, losing appetite, looking like crap in school.

We didnt quarrel or anything. Things would prolly be much easier if we did. It's not him, it's me, it's time, it's distance, it's stress, it's paranoia, it's everything intangible which we cant explain. The feelings still remain the same but some things changed. Argh i dont know how to explain. Not that i need to anyway.

I'll prolly stay in this state for awhile more, im still thinking through some things. But at the moment, much love to Jas Kat Shane for being there for me. ♥

纤云弄巧，飞星传恨，银汉迢迢暗度。金风玉露一相逢，便胜却人间无数。柔情似水，佳期如梦，忍顾鹊桥归路。两情若是久长时，又岂在朝朝暮暮。

2012-01-27T20:35:00.007+08:00

My favourite poem from higher chinese lessons in secondary school. And prolly the only thing i remember after 4 years.

Time time i need more time. So many things to do!

Miss Kuangjun! :(

新年快乐!

2012-01-22T16:10:00.005+08:00

My new class! (: Not full pax though, thanks Gavin for all the photos! (:

Im currently underweight now, after the height-and-weight taken during PE. .__. Should've been a good excuse for me to binge on CNY goodies but i feel damn guilty even eating a few pieces more of grandma/mum/sis' awesome homemade pineapple tarts! 她们出力我帮忙吃! :P

CNY-celebration-cum-Be-Yourself-Day on friday kinda sucked. :( The performance was very short, like only 3 items. But every class get to lohei together! (: 1131 damn cute! Then went out with the babes after the celebration! Jas Kat Shane! ♥ Cant wait for Jasmine to upload the photos! (:

2 of my favourite juniors! (: This year would most likely be tough/boring if not for their company! And Juntian/Joan/Ruixiang/Jas/Kat/Shane!

Still dont feel like it's CNY yet. :O We are all couch potatoes lazing around the house watching 步步惊心 hahah. I prefer calling it Scarlett Heart. (: But awesome drama!

Here wishing anyone reading – 新年快乐，心想事成，身体健康，学业进步! (: Especially 1038, Rah Iz Drey Jacq Char Ber! Closed to 2 hours of phonecall with Drey this week made me miss y'all even more! :(

新年快乐! ♥

Even when the skies get rough, im giving you all my love.

2012-01-13T21:30:00.003+08:00

Oh haiiiiiiiiiii.

Im a lil' brain dead from rushing math for the past 3 hours+. :(

From the lack of posting you should know how's my first week like already. Heehee. Everyday just come home like a zombie cause i've 0730 morning lessons now EVERYDAY and lessons end late afternoon too.

Actually i just had 3 official school days cause of open house, but felt like a month had passed. .__. Okay too exaggerated.

BUT MOST IMPORTANTLY,

I like 1131. :D First impression was already good the moment i met them in the hall, all friendly peeps. But it's quite a different dynamics as 1038. 16 guys 6 girls currently compared to 20 girls 2 guys in the past, hurhurhur.

So far im still trying to remember names or for some, recognising faces. .__. Hope they dont think im unfriendly because i can just walk past some of them without realising they're from 1131 too. Oops. You know how slow i am for things like this. Recalling how i took about a month to differentiate Sarah and Joanne back in J1. .__. Or worst, i still cant remember a few NYCO juniors' names after 1 year!

Teachers wise, not much of changes though. I still have Mr Chng, Mr Kellet, Ms Yap, Mr Joshua Ng and Mr Victor teaching the respective subjects. Just that econs changed to Ms Ng (the one with Ms Chim), and Math changed to Mr Loke. But the teachers are very nice and all, good at teaching too. (:

Not forgetting i snipped off 18 inches of my long locks last sunday too! New look for 2012 indeed gave me lotsa jaw-dropped faces but they all like it, thankfully. (: Except for Sunchang he (calmly) said "我还是觉得你长发比较好看!" which made me regret for a day. But it's growing back real fast i can tie now already whuttt. .__.

Anyway havent had a chance to talk to Kuangjun properly this week. :( Hope it's just this week!

Just Sing Along To My Stereo.

2012-01-06T14:15:00.004+08:00

Had so much fun with my 胡琴 last night! (: 2 people to full attendence yay! Next gathering no one can fall sick and dont come okay! :D

Got so stinky and so full from the BBQ, glad that i reached home at 0015 there werent many people on the bus. :P Had leftovers wings/prawns/éclairs too but we'd the usual 终极密码 which i kept winning heheh thankfully if not my stomach will burst! :P

Last outing for me this holiday! Time to 收心 and get really for school!

새해 복 많이 받으세요!

2012-01-01T11:11:00.030+08:00

We dont need a new year to make changes, but our mind to reflect and put in our heart and soul. (:

I believe 2012 will be like 2011 (or even worst, touchwood), but since i've been through it once, i might know how to make it better. (: Totally looking forward to this brand new year on a positive note. And faith! (:

So for 2012, selective close friends, having Kuangjun around and getting my AABB, i'll be on my way to have the time of my life. (:

2011.

2011-12-31T11:11:00.025+08:00

(A mandatory post at this time of the year!)

Seriously, i dont know what im supposed to get out of 2011 or what is it about, except that it was just a year of madness, with piles of past year papers and late nights in college. It's like this body dealing with routines everyday hahah kidding! (: But it taught me how to persevere and push on (which i need it in 2012), and not to second-guess myself (need it in 2012 too). It also gave me a few friends i'd like to keep. (:

And do i really have to say all these again? How im thankful for these people in my life yadayadablablabla. I've been telling you guys how much i love you every now and then! :DD

Just 3 prominent groups of people i've to mention:

1. 1038 has really been so special, and im so amazed how a class can behave like a huge clique most of the time FOR 2 YEARS, probably cause we're all girls. ♥ How many classes have lunch together everyday (and queued at the same stall), go to classes together, study together? Thanks Rah, Iz and Drey for being a hugeeee part of my JC life, all our nonsense hee. (: Drey especially, 6 years and counting. Despite a petty argument in lower sec but im really glad you've stayed in my life, and you being my JC classmate with the same subject combination, im sure it's fate that brought us together. (: Though after 2 years i still dont get why Wemakesix failed and left 4 people, but that doesnt matter anymore because we've all moved on. (: Also, though i only became close with Char/Ber/Jacq (cause of night study and twitter especially) near the end of this year, which was quite a pity, but i love you girls too and we still have many years ahead! (:

2. My 胡琴 section! ♥ Wont forget the times we went through thick and thin together! I dont remember my batch being so close to the 1992 seniors, and this is really the first time i see a section behaves as one! SYF'11 was really a blast, ended my 10 years in CO really well with fun-filled memories! (: You guys will have your own memories with the new batch of kids next year, but i believe the whole 胡琴 will remain as one! (: For those who're promoted, congrats once again and we'll face our next challenge together! For those who didnt, see it as a chance to perform better! Use the spirit we used for SYF to overcome these obstacles! (:

3. KJ! Im quite sure you're a gift from God to get me pass 2011. ♥ Touched by all the lil' things you did, especially this year! Waiting for me after school or after CO at night for HTHT, going back school on saturdays to study with me, etc. When r/s turn sour at home for few days, you're always just a text or a phonecall away. While i was still preparing for my Alevels and during the SYF period, all your unexpected yet encouraging texts in the unearthly hours egged me on (though they woke me up hahah). I find myself troublesome most of the times because i ALWAYS tend to over-think and worry TOO much, but you've never complained once, no matter how busy you're. You've taught me so many things/values, showed me how to look at things from many angles, helped me solved so many problems, and brought me so much warmth and joy. ♥

So thanks and goodbye 2011, you did great!

2011-12-30T23:50:00.017+08:00

Had dinner with 1038 at Manhattan's. (: Great time catching up cause i havent seen a few since.. i cant remember, graduation? Too long ago heh. Now majority are busy ladies working their heads off. Good luck girls! (:

Shopping with Zeng and Pei in the afternoon was pretty awesome too! (: Miss Zeng especially, havent seen her around (not even in college) for many donkey months!

Kept bumping into our batch of NY peeps today though. Awkward much when you're reading a book in Times and see a familiar guy next to you looking at the books too. The thing is you cant go "HEY I KNOW YOUR FACE BUT WE'RE STRANGERS IN SCHOOL YO!" .__.

Right gotta sleep now! Just realised tomorrow's the last day of 2011! :O

Make me your radio / Turn me up when you feel low.

2011-12-28T20:20:00.000+08:00

Cant believe it's 3 more days to a brand new year! These few days were rather mundance; going out (in less than 3 weeks since i returned from Hongkong i'd already spent $400 ahhhh), revising my work, and watching Gossip Girl. :/ Yeah i know it's so not eggciting. :(

Oh oh! On a side note, i've an acquaintance who's gonna work as a wedding planner assistant as her post-As job! (: It's MY.DREAM.JOB! ♥♥ Im soooo jealous! :D

Anywayz.

Dont know if i should sign up for driving theory test now or wait till after my As. But a part of me is damn scared because after theory means practical, which means im gonna learn how to drive?!?! It's a real car not a go-kart! I havent even get my hands on a go-kart before. .__. Already foresee myself to drive like a snail and all the men (literally) on the road will hate me. :(

But i need to drive if i wanna be wedding planner. :(

Anyone who has finished As and wanna enrol themselves for driving too please tell me, let's go together! :D

Merry Christmas! ☃

2011-12-25T11:11:00.002+08:00

Hanged out at my granny's last night. Last minute lazy and cosy family plans. Yay to pizzas! :D

It isnt Christmas without Christ! All glory to Him! Amen!

Still Surviving.

2011-12-20T12:20:00.011+08:00

1. Yesss i've received my first Nuffnang cheque! :D

2. I've to bring a date for this Christmas thingy but i remember asking K last Christmas too, he told me he dont like events like this. :( So im not gonna ask again. Cant go, not going. :(

3. But movie marathon as backup plan sounds good too. Cosy and lazy, i like. :D

4. Watched The Adventures of Tintin yesterday with Limpin and Junjie yesterday. Love Snowy (Tintin's dog)! :D And memories of primary school flashed back! Remember we had a period call "Library" and the whole class would visit the school library together and majority of us would be over at the Tintin's section! Heh! (:

5. Hates sleeping now. Whenever i turn, the wounds would brush against something and i'll wake up in pain. :'(

Monotonous.

2011-12-18T22:10:00.015+08:00

Today's a really bad day. Stuck with no train service and took freaking 2 hours to travel from Yishun to Toa Payoh with the shuttle buses. Worst, a horrible auntie pushed me on the escalator at Northpoint and huge patches of skin were torn off from both of my legs and blood kept oozing out. It's just half as bad as Tingting's that time when she chased after the milo van. .__.

The thing is, that auntie didnt even apologise! Im so mad! :( The wound is quite deep and still swelling im desperately hoping it isnt infection! :O

Anyway, had an early family Christmas party today cause my aunt is going overseas next week. Not in the mood to celebrate cause of the injury, and it's really still too early! :/

Blablabla. Thankful i get to meet up with ♥ in the late evening and "out of pity" i've got a treat with my favourite Peppermint Mocha from Starbucks! Yayee so happy! :D Heard it's the last cup they're selling today too! Thanks! (:(:

Haiz, tomorrow will be better.

I ♥ K. :D

2011-12-18T01:10:00.000+08:00

2011-12-17T23:55:00.002+08:00

Back from Titanic exibition at ArtScience Museum, Marina Bay Sands! All the lightings and props were perfect, really felt like i was onboard on the real Titanic! :D With my own boarding pass!

Initially thought today would turn out badly. What's with the train disruption, heavy rain, bad-tempered couple and losing our way in the museum, BUT PRAISE LORD we all enjoyed ourselves in the end. That's the most important point isn't it? (:

And yes! The above is my boarding pass for Titanic! (: It's super cool, everyone has a different one! Gonna type mine out and let you guys see! (:

SAILING FROM: Cherbourg
DATE: 10 April 1912
NAME: Mrs Victor de Satode Penasco y Castellana (Maria Josefa Perez de Soto y Vellejo)
AGE: 17
FROM: Madrid, Spain
ACCOMPANIED BY: Mr Victor Penasco y Castellana (husband), Done Femina Oliva y Ocana (servant)
CLASS: 1st CABIN: #C-65
TRAVELING TO: New York, New York
REASON: Maria and her extremely wealthy husband Victor had been on an adventurous two-year honeymoon. While staying in Paris, they decided to extend the magic with a transatlantic voyage on Titanic.
PASSENGER FACT: Maria's mother-in-law had warned the couple against taking a trip by sea, saying it was bad luck for a honeymoon. To fool their families, Maria and Victor left their butler in Paris, instructing him to mail several pre-writtern post cards to Spain while they traveled to New York and back.

Among all the girls', i was the only one in 1st-class cabin. Heh. :D

At the end of the exhibition there was this section where you could check (with your boarding pass) whether you "survived" from the Titanic incident, well, i survived (cause i was in 1st-class cabin) but my husband died. :'(

After that went to have dinner at Just Asia with the girls. :D Miss their kimchi udon! That was my favorite food during the SYF period with my section mates! And the lime sorbet ice-cream omg, yumz!

Thanks Ber and Char for the good luck charm and 铁蛋 respectively from Taiwan! Love them both! (My mum too, LOL!). Hope you babes like the gifts i bought in HK too! (:

A Dramatic Twist.

2011-12-16T00:55:00.002+08:00

I know a blog post isnt gonna do justice to it, but i've already did what i need to do in real life, so im just gonna pen down my thoughts here.

Just had a HTHT with mum late in the night. Seriously, when the truth came out and it's far from what i thought it was, i really feel like my life's a drama and someone's watching it. For 5 years! Gosh, how we wasted those 5 years.

Dont know how many had read my previous post (which i'd deleted because it no longer represents my thoughts), but that's not the point. I just hope it's not too late to correct the mistake we all made since 5 years back. It's always hard to take the first step, always need a lil bit more courage/confidence-boost, but im gonna do it. We're going to make it happen, we can make it happen.

I think Kuangjun really changed my life. Thanks so much, you're really the greatest gift God has given me. ♥

Im homeeeeeeeeee!

2011-12-13T20:35:00.004+08:00

Hiiiiii! :D Back in Singapore on Sunday night, heh. Now im still having withdrawal syndromes, missing the 9°C weather and super "nua" pillows at the hotels! :( And all the fun times spent with all the huqin peeps, especially Joan! ♥

The trip overall was really awesome! Had my virgin ride on airbus A380, ferry, cable car, and saw real pandas for the first time! :D And never did i expect i'll get to go Disneyland in my life! Yayeeee! :D The meals were fine but wasteful cause we'd like 10-courses every meal? All couldnt finish. :( Shopping part wasnt really interesting as the stuff was really limited, but still spent almost all my cash here and there. (:

Ahhh i need to stop feeling like im still in Hongkong because i'd spent bout SGD$130 these 2 days after im back. :( Went out with Joan and Jacq respectively for Starbucks, movie, shopping... ohgosh! But New Year's Eve was niceeeee! ♥ Lea Michele! :D

Anyway, Hongkong trip photos are all on FB luh, as usual! (:

HONGKONG HERE WE COME!

2011-12-05T18:00:00.001+08:00

Ohmygoodnessgracious the (hot) pink ribbon and tag by the agency are soooooo bimbotic. Ew. :(

Actually im done packing my luggage long long ago but after hearing how cold it's getting, like gonna be around 14°C, i've decided to take out my thick GAP hoodie and carry it everywhere, so now my luggage is like just half-filled. :3 And it's like a medium sized luggage so imagine the space i have! Hee!

Brrr. :( I cant even stand the cold rainy nights in Singapore now, so... wish me luck! (:

So, im off to Hongkong in less than 24 hours! Hope i can sleep by 8pm tonight and wake up at that unearthly time where you guys are still deep in slumber. Boohoo. See you guys soon at all the meetups (already lined up for me) after im back!

xoxo!

-Charging-

2011-12-04T23:00:00.023+08:00

Finally a day spent at home! :D 'Ve been going out almost everyday and walked till my feet hurts. Spending my week as if my As are over, heehee. Though i find mine more events-filled cause they're all looking for jobs/working/lazing around/playing sims blablabla. .__. Nevermind! I already made plans to make them go out with me when im back! :D

Late lunch-dinner with ♥ tomorrow before im off! So nice to treat me my favourite tzi-char stall yayee!

2011-12-03T22:45:00.006+08:00

Celebrated Jas' 18th at MBS last night! :D Had a really awesome time with the girls, heh! Thank you Jas and family for the food/cake/fun/NIGHT VIEW! Omg YESSSSS the view from the hotel room's damn nice! :D Proud to be one of the photographers too IT'S MY FIRST EVENT! :D Beginner 的我会加油的! 我是 Charmaine Loh, Tudi is my hidden middle name! :D (Okay bad joke!)

Photos are uploaded on FB, go.have.a.look.now! :D

Three Musketeers.

2011-11-30T23:55:00.007+08:00

Went to shop around with Charmaine and Shane today. The whole trip was damn funny, you guys should be there to see what Shane did/said hahahahha! (: We'd lotsa fun time laughing AT her. Heehee okay so bad! :P Cant wait to see them again on friday! And Jas Kat Ber too! :D

Bought my first pair of earrings today! *jumps around* I dont know why i chose banana so random BUT I FIND IT SO CUTE! :D

Then went back to school for the trip breifing at 7.30pm. Wasnt in school uniform but the security was so cool bout it. I think my favourite uncle finally remember/recognised me (my face)! (:(:

Cant wait for Hongkong now! And going back for my first CO practice this friday cause we're performing at Hongkong! :D Miss the time spent with my section! :D Heard the new DSA kids are really fun and they have 二胡 diploma already?! :O Wanna see these talents for myself hee! (:

On a side note, ahhhh someone has been so sweet these few days while i've terrible cramps haiz. I know i've been receiving sooooooo much from him since the first day we met, feeling guilty max you guys dont have to remind me, need to find that balance and give back too, hee. (:

xoxo.

Achievement(s) Unlocked!

2011-11-26T22:10:00.002+08:00

First day of the hols and i completed all 5 IH essays yayeeee! (: With a goal and determination really comes success, eh? :D So proud of myself! Left chemistry, 1 SEA essay and GP (which they havent upload on the Litespeed that is closing down in 4 days). Ohyah! NY's finally terminating partnership with lousy Litespeed! (Y) Cant believe we paid for a system that's always on maintenance! .__.

Finally cleared the challenge mode for Oven Break too! ^^ Im always lagging behind in iPhone apps games compared to Jacq! Haiz. :P

On a side note,
1. Singtel needs to mail me my Takashimaya voucher! Has been a month!
2. Nuffnang needs to mail me my cheque too! Going a month as well!

:(

LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!

2011-11-25T20:10:00.006+08:00

Im in 1131! Though a lil' upset cause im not in the same class as Shane, but nah nevermind, there's lotsa breaks and after-school meetups! (:(:

Went to Sitex yesterday with Pei! (: Yayee got my Canon EOS 600D at $1199! And a bag-full of free gifts! :D Glad i waited and not buy it at Challenger for $1049 because i wont get my free extra battery, SD cards, cleaning kit etc! Hee!

Then i think you'll get a lucky draw ticket for every $100 spent? Cause i got 12! :D Dropped all my tickets into a single box hoping to win $2000 + Sony TV, LOL! While i saw the others put theirs into many different boxes for different prizes. I dont know which method gives you higher probability of winning, still, (: Putting all my eggs in a basket. Meowz. (:

AND HERE COMES THE HOLS! ^^ Gonna complete all the assignments over the next 4 days and it'll all be shopping, Hongkong, meetups, foooooooooooooooooood.

Thank God there arent a lot of assignments cause i get to skip math and the econs video. (: On a side note urgh Mr Kellet's taking the J2s next year! :( DAMN IM A MINI FAN-GIRL OF MR SEQUIERA! :'( I dont care im still gonna pester him for essays/consults, hee!

Back To God.

2011-11-23T20:45:00.001+08:00

Woke up with a really bad stiff neck, even till now i cant turn my head to the right. Urgh! Hurts until i cant be bothered to go for the 2 lectures in the morning, and im having really bad headache now. :'(

Realised i havent been talking about school since it started on the 17th. Hm, im coping well so far? Remembered the first 2 days (last week) were really terrible, came home to cry everyday cause i regretted, but thank God i've Kuangjun and Shane accompanying me for lectures. (:

As of now, im gradually finding back the motivation/reason why i decided to u-turn just 10 days before the A's, how i felt so strongly 'bout it then. Because i believe i'd do better i mean not just for econs but generally across all the subjects too, so i shouldnt lose focus! I need to be more independent too! 1038 真的宠坏我了! :P I dont wanna be a burden to people who are dear to me like Kuangjun and Shane. (: If others can do it, so can i!

米修米修!

2011-11-22T23:11:00.039+08:00

Last year this day it was first day of Bridging; first day i met Kuangjun, (: I dont know how to describe what im feeling now, but one thing for sure, im missing the teachers and the kids! Like a lot a lot. Especially Darren, Shukree, Regan, Michelle, etc! The kids are all going primary 2 soon! So fast! (': Good to know that Ms Angela's doing fine in Auckland too! :D

Anyway went to watch《那些年，我們一起追的女孩》with few '38 girls today! (: Rushed to PS after lecture and i was kinda mad cause Mr Kellet delayed the dismissal just for his countdown thingy! Urgh annoying! Thank God it's my one and only lecture with him!

The movie's not bad, but i cant decide i like the book or the movie better. (: They're quite different in a way, like some scenes which i was hoping they'll include, but then again to squeeze everything in 1 hour + is quite impossible. Hee.

Love the time spent with the girls too! (: Im so involved in the majority of the post-As plans since we planned like before prelims, so i feel like mine's over too, damn weird. (: Museums, movies, Minds' cafe, crashing each others' house, Titanic, birthday party at MBS, Sitex, yadayada. (: Cant wait for all the meet-ups! (: And hongkong! :D

Goodnight huns! (:

In Those Weak And Drunken Hearts,

2011-11-16T17:00:00.003+08:00

I must have been out of my mind to vent my frustrations on Kuangjun for the first time, yet he didnt get mad at me. :( I feel like a crazy bitch today im so so so sorry! Even apologising a million billion trillion times wont remove that guilt. :(

Like what char said, everything will be alright, it'll be.

Last Christmas I Gave You My Heart,

2011-11-16T15:05:00.003+08:00

Cant wait for Christmas already!

So it's tomorrow! I'd be lying if i say im not scared at all and cover up my lies with a wide smile. Truth is, IM SO SCARED UNTIL IM GONNA BAWL MY HEAD OFF! Never felt so alone, so apprenhensive, so at loss! Kept replaying in my mind how everything's gonna be like almost everyday; imagining and assuring myself everything's gonna be alright, but as the day arrives i think i cant do this! :( I realise i always have the courage to do things others dont, yet finding myself regretting all the time.

Just want to share an SMS by Wippy a few nights ago. It's super long and i felt very touched upon reading it. Bet no one out there could type another one that is as long as hers for me. (: Im really glad to have friends like her, praise God.

"Hello Sabrina. I didnt know about it (u-turning) until i saw an empty desk during IH paper and started connecting the dots. You have the courage of what i didnt have the courage to do. And now i feel so unprepared... You have made a difficult decision, amidst all the dissuasion from your peers i believe. You have made it through, you took a leap of faith. It may not be easy to assimilate into the class, but dont let that worry you. Just give it your best shot! Have faith! Maybe another year could just be what a student needs to feel assured. Assurance itself, is half a victory won. New classmates as well as pressures from teachers to excel, and you might need to face the brunt of people's insensitive remarks, but do be brave. It's easy to be distracted by unkind words, feeling hurt and bruised, but keep the faith going yeah?"

AHHHH I CAN DO THIS! Dislike changes but only those who can adapt, can survive! God pleaseeeeeee give me strength and courage!

And my first lecture tomorrow is the subject im gonna sacrifice 1 year for -- Econs! And Shane just told me there's a lecture test tomorrrow but i cant access the current J1's materials to prepare for it! :(

The ice-cream waffle outing with my favourite 1038 girls in the evening tomorrow is gonna be the best thing ever since i made the decision. Missing them already! :(

And,

2011-11-09T18:50:00.003+08:00

Hi guys! Realised i've been neglecting this space over here, hee. :D Im so bored at home lately, because majority of my friends are taking their As, and for those who are not, they are busy with their GP assignment. Zz i feel like im neither here nor there, so awkward. :(

Nevertheless, thank God i get to have a mini Harry Potter movie marathon over at my house, and i've been planning my luggage list for Hong Kong! Yes it's less than a month from now! :D Eggcited!

On a side note, a part of me is glad that im not taking it this year (after hearing how terrible some papers were), and a part of me just feel, weird. But im not regretting or anything now, just saying. (: Since i've decided, im moving on! My new life will begin on 17th november by the way!

All the best to everyone! (:

2011-10-30T23:11:00.003+08:00

Happy 18th hon!

You Jump, I Jump.

2011-10-29T15:45:00.003+08:00

‎"But now you know that there was a man named Jack Dawson and that he saved me in every way that a person can be saved. I don't even have a picture of him. He exists now only in my memory."

And Celine Dion's My Heart Will Go On never fails to touch people's heart. It's no wonder why i loved her since i was 5 or 6, influenced by daddy. (:

I could watch this a million times,

Jack and Rose.

:D

2011-10-26T07:00:00.003+08:00

Wanna gooooooooooooo!

Anyway, likes how (almost) everything has an app now. Find myself more active with FB/Tumblr/Twitter (especially while travelling). Anytime, anywhere. :D And i dont even have to switch on my Macbook Pro for days, hee. Getting the Samsung Galaxy S2 soon too! (:

Follow me on Twitter! (:

The best is yet to come.

2011-10-23T10:25:00.001+08:00

So despite getting the go-ahead by my respective subject tutors, im still gonna heed my CT's advice: 1 more year. Because Econs is my H2 and it MUST be included in my 3H2/1H1. And still failing Econs at prelims is like :/ Need to start praying to all economists/econs-god-and-goddesses because if i really still dont get at least a 'B' for it next year then i'd really "waste" 1 year. *fingers cross + touchwood*

Sigh just feel sian cause im not any stupider and i've worked really hard (can proudly say it's more than some people out there). And even those who sleeps in lecture/dont do tutorials/screwed up Olevels, they are taking their As in 'bout 2 weeks? Damn. But it isnt about working hard anymore, it's working smart. Probably. Worst when im not meant to be in the Arts. :/

Remember how when the thought of having to u-turn first came to my mind, i was so afraid and looked at it with much negativity. Highly because of this judgmental society we’re all living in. And because i judge too. ‘Bout not living up to my own expectation, this “perfect” world i imagined myself to live in.

But now, the idea isn’t that bad i guess? And there’s nothing like a perfectionist? More like an anal girl perhaps. Now instead of a perfectionist, i wanna be an “adaptist” who strive for excellence.

Anyway, it’s really one more year to learn from your mistakes, to brush up on your skills (im assuming that by now all of us aren’t having content issues anymore).

Seeing Mr Toh’s urge to knock some “sense” in my head with his pen as usual because he really think i should and already have the ability, thus ready for the final lap… And Kuangjun thinking that im silly to want to waste one year of my life, well, I dont know. But i just need to build more faith in myself i guess? Just looking at improvement in Prelims arent enough to build up that confidence in me.

What’s so bad about one more year? Im just dreading the new classmates/teachers/PE/lousy canteen food part. But with one more year im quite confident i’ll have higher chance of getting better grades thus a better university admission and prolly scholarships too. And to be able to keep my choices open. Though now i know im gonna be a wedding planner, but who knows what’s gonna happen in future?

I believe He has a plan for me. (:

So many things!

2011-10-20T06:00:00.002+08:00

Morning!

Feels so tired left school at 2115h last night because it was so nice to study then! Night time + drizzling = more productive i think? At home in that weather it's the type of night spent lazing under a warm duvet in a freezing room, but in school it feels totally different! :D Anyway, my bed seems so comfy all of a sudden after the alarm goes off, :( But jacqy and i promised to reach school at 0800h sigh. :/

And i miss you too. :'( xo.

We Survived JC!

2011-10-14T21:50:00.009+08:00

Congratulate us with a pat on the back for surviving 2 years of JC! (: No photos today despite bringing my camera cause we've a professional Charmaine as the class photographer! :D But i've this really nice polaroid with Juntian! (:

Didnt get to see Kuangjun around so no photos with him this time. :"(

Anyway, it isnt really the end yet, still gonna go back college for self-study from monday to sunday, sunday to monday. Wellz the last lap luh! (:

Goodnight! And all the way evereebuddeh!

2011-10-09T20:50:00.001+08:00

Feels really good to have a friend who really understands what you're going through, providing you with good suggestions/encouragement you need. (As compared to the others giving you really superficial comments because they just cant be bothered/dont understand.) And someone who's more than a friend standing behind you, supporting any decision that you're gonna make. ♥ It just seems to make everything simpler and easier to handle. (:

When the going gets tough, i thank Lord for the happy things. And because He's in charge, all things will work out for good. Amen.

It's not 'bout doing your best anymore, it's doing better.

2011-10-09T08:45:00.000+08:00

Indecisive,

2011-10-07T20:50:00.011+08:00

Voices constantly talking to me in my head it's so frustrating!

Well actually these voices are all mine. Part of me wants that and the other wants something else. Sigh. And i dont wanna take chances. :(

Anyway, TGIF! Yes im so so so so so glad the weekends' here! Not that im gonna (or have the chance to) laze around, but i'd very much prefer self-studying for the whole day than attending tutorials now, (:

OCTOBER ALREADY!

2011-10-02T11:10:00.004+08:00

Cant remember how many days left to the As but 12 MORE DAYS TO GRADUATION? :( Feels like a dream or something, :/

Anyway, i seriously didnt realise that my new shampoo smells so strongly until recently! This honey-peachy thingy. Because some people started sniffing and commend about the nice smell, and it's really awkward when they come really close just to smell your hair. .__. When i tie up for school it's not so bad, it's when i remove the rubberhand when i reached home or when i go out without tying, this strong puff(s) of honey-peach ohmygod.

ALL THE BEST FOR PROMOS, SLEEPYHEAD! ♥

2011-09-29T20:20:00.016+08:00

I think doing your best is much more important than anything. And you need just a lil' bit more self-confidence! Ahhhhh if not where/how do i get my confidence from! Heehee. Just needa unleash that potential in you, come on 'cause you and i know what you're truly made of! (:

And hope you've received it by now, (: 加油!

All Down!

2011-09-27T22:40:00.003+08:00

Finally Prelims' down, baby!

Caught "Johnny English Reborn" with Drey, Jac and Xinyi after our last paper today! It's quite funny with the silly yet so awesome Rowan Atkinson (aka Mr Bean)! But there's one part where only me and Drey got the joke and we were the only ones in the cinema who laughed, awkward much, :P

Wanna watch "One Day"! (:

And im so gonna adopt a teacup poodle in a few years time (a dream since long ago)! Yeah, adopt. Just wanna add in, that pets are lifelong commitment, homosapiens! They arent toys which you could put aside once you get tired of them. Just felt upset looking at websites with all those poor darlings waiting for adoption, :(

Meowz.

2011-09-24T11:00:00.001+08:00

Finally managed to fall asleep at around 7am i think. The historic event in Na's life, eh? But only managed a 2-hour sleep since the sun's all out and shining into my room. Tsk!

Now chop chop, off to school to study with Kuangjun, fingers crossed and hope i can survive with the amount of sleep i got, hee! (:

Time check: 0435.

2011-09-24T04:35:00.002+08:00

Ha! Is this what you call, insomnia? Kept waking up like every hour since, 11pm. :/ And im feeling so hungry/troubled/upset too, damn! So many things, choices, directions..

So do i really have a choice when my options end up being the same thing?

2011-09-23T13:30:00.002+08:00

So it's like 1 week of mini break for me now, since my next (LAST!) paper is next tuesday, and it's MCQ so, :P Caught my new Glee season 3 and 'Tangled' movie online! (: Okay chillax peeps, after today im gonna start mugging again!

After so many years, Disney movies still managed to touch my heart (and set my tear glands to work)! Hahah! I love them! No one's ever too old for Disney movies! (:

Just saw a music video on Youtube too, with the employees from Disney lip-dubbing at the studio, OMGOSH the workplace looks so fun! (: Kinda tempts me to wanna work there but then again, no im sticking with my wedding planner! :D

Loveeeeeee the chameleon! Cutie! (:

TGIF!

2011-09-16T17:00:00.004+08:00

Finally a breather, now that the week that's packed with papers is over! (:

To him who's always just a phone call away or on the look out for me, SANGCUE! (: The little things that make me smile, im so touched! :D And i guess im just more sensitive than usual during this stressful period, so,

thank God i have youuu, :D

On a side note, im having more fun times with some of my classmates lately, especially the times when we all mug together (JACQUELINE CHARMAINE), and all the constant encouragement given to each other. Im so scared i'd miss them too badly when the time comes. :(

Cutie Pie!

2011-09-14T18:50:00.001+08:00

He sure knows how, (:

Why are you sooooo sweet! ♥

Blissed!

2011-09-02T20:00:00.029+08:00

When someone you love remembers every lil' thing you'd told him, ♥♥

I need to stop smiling to myself in public or at random passerbys, hahah!

Melted at your pretty eyes again and the way you looked at me! (: Today i realised both of us like to do weird things in school too. Hm. (: BUT MOST IMPORTANTLY, PRAISE LORD! I mean, it's really amazing how after so long it feels just like before, you know, :D Just gotta persevere for awhile more!

♥ K,

(I've a feeling Sam gonna throw her eraser at me again, heehee!)

Buffet Lunch @ Marriott Hotel!

2011-08-29T02:15:00.004+08:00

Yumyums. :D It's definitely a great place to go with your loved ones, (: With great ambience and service, and it's just 'bout $50++ per person? Really enjoyed my 2.5hours there, :D

Dont expect alot of cooked food though, quite limited in variety (though there's seafood available for you to request for them to cook for you), but their desserts' awesome! Especially crème brûlée and mocha cheesecake! And this liquor-containing chocolate thing (with cream inside, something like cream puffs) is highly recommended too! But if you cant stand anything alcoholic like my sister well i suggest you just steer away from it, :D It's rum if im not wrong?

Oh and they've this section of break sticks with different types of cheese for you to choose and cut from! (: All the cheese names which i've never heard of! :D Soooooo cool! Im a very cheese person! (: PS: I almost typed cheesy. .__.

Meowz. Okay i gotta go to bed now it's 2.15am, such unearthly and rare hour for me to stay awake! Next time i shouldnt nap so much, heehee. Nights! ♥

HELLO!

2011-08-26T18:50:00.034+08:00

Wow, so i havent blogged in a while! Life's good so far, getting into some momentum with night study and kinda more efficient with assignments to make way for revision time. (:

Anyway, just spent 'bout $60 off Gmarket! (: A treat for myself after a long and tiring week yeah! Okay okay this is such a bad excuse, but i couldnt resist the temptation. Hee!

Im like, influencing the people around me over stickers/post-its/gmarket! Now currently active: Qianyi, JY, Shell, Pei and i. Im teaching Drey how to use Gmarket later! (:(: Think im sucha bad influence (for spending so much kachings), :P But i'll hate myself for not living up to the standard of a bestfriend if i just let her buy stickers at $3 when she can get many more sheets online at just a few cents each! :O

Cant wait for postman to arrive with all my items! :DDDDDDDDDDDD

Buffet lunch at Marriott Hotel tomorrow too! (:

Nunhood.

2011-08-16T22:00:00.018+08:00

No, that doesnt mean im staying vegetarian the whole of my life (i think im gonna dieeee).

The motivation talk today was better than Adam Koo's i think, from our experience in the good old O'level days. At least he's more normal in the sense that he didnt throw markers at people nor conducted the session with such exaggerated tone, and personally i think he's more motivating. (:

No distractions. Well, mine arent as trivial as FB/teevee/bed/whatnot, it's gonna be hard but i can! Oh oh! Just sidetrack a lil', all of a sudden im reminded of this girl who was speaking so loudly in school yesterday, she told her friend "不要想你还有什么东西还没有做，一直做就对了!" Make sense, huh.

Right, so, 84 more days! Just gotta try my best and let God do the rest, (: Cause i know God is in control of everything. I mean, God is bigger than all our fears, our doubts, our problems, our Alevels. Just keep the faith in Him especially this time, this time where we need Him more than ever. (:

Goodnight!

CAUSE BABY YOU'RE A FIREWORK,

2011-08-09T07:15:00.002+08:00

Pei's coming over to my house later! :D For national day, study, food and photos! Gonna give my 'live' fireworks at the Helix bridge a miss cause she dont wanna squeeze with the crowd. :"(

HAPPY 46 YEARS YOUNG, SINGAPORE! ♥

2011-08-08T22:10:00.005+08:00

IKR! Happened to me so many times! Whenever i say i know Korean, they'll be like "SAY SOMETHING!" .__.

Kinda regretted picking up Korean though, especially with the craze going on nowadays. :/ Dont mean anything, but i dont like to be the sameeeeeee as the others. :S Should've picked up French/Spanish/etc instead. :D OKAY! Good plan for post-As eh? :D

And dont judge me but i've never listened to any of the korean bands before, well, not as if i've heard of them anyway, :D I think they're so over-rated, :/ I like my english oldies, (: (Okay before i go further about being born in the wrong era,)

By the way Rah's KUMSAMIHADA is damn hilarious, HEEHEE!

.__.

2011-08-07T19:55:00.002+08:00

That awkward moment when they thought your tuition teacher is your boyfriend, zz come on he's 22.

2011-08-06T22:25:00.000+08:00

And i'll dream of you tonight, goodnight! (:

Why Cant Everything Just Work Out For Once?

2011-08-04T20:45:00.002+08:00

All of us have our own set of problems in life. Well, not as if anyone cares, but i gotta fix my brain and heart if i want things to go right.

But right now, badly need a cuddle or a word of comfort from someone. But he has too much on his plate too, i guess? Now with P's coming and everything. But we will be fine, one thing for sure.

Cried/bawled/teared under the sheets last night, now it's time to move on, keep going, and keep the faith, babe!

How bad do you want it? How bad do i, want it?

TGIF!

2011-07-29T22:10:00.001+08:00

YAYEEE FRIDAYYY! :D

He's super-duper nice today too! ♥ Epic moodswing period now so im touched by the slightest thing, aww! (: And just random, is it normal that each time we meet in college it's as if my heart is having premature ventricular contractions (yet i've to appear calm)? HAHAH! (: Kidding, im just exaggerating! (:

ANYWAYZ, next week onwards im prolly gonna look like walking corpse everyday cause night-study is finally here! Yayee exactly 4 more months to my last paper/freedom! (: Prepared to give it my all already, all the way! (:

Reporting From Yeesooon!

2011-07-27T21:20:00.006+08:00

Heehee the house is so big here we can play hide-and-seek! :D (Compare to other flats i mean, it's still smaller than my old house at Serangoon Garden.)

Feeling much happier now than this afternoon because my whole room is so clean and tidy now! :D Efficient me! (: Oh anyway this afternoon right, i walked home for 45 mins cause i dont know which bus to take! Hate my dad for telling me to walk home instead of him driving out to fetch me! :( So bad right! :(

Anyway my new malay neighbour (our floor only have 2 units) is so friendly! :D

Short update, toodles! (:

FOURRRRRRRRRRRRRRR PLUS FIVE.

2011-07-24T12:40:00.004+08:00

Oh on a random note, im so excited for my year-end overseas trip! (: *skips around* The whole CO's gonna go Hongkong/Macau after our 'A's! (: And it's gonna be like a lil' winter-ish, (Y) Though quite disappointed since our initial plan was Korea. :(

ANYWAY, some of us are gonna "extend" our trip (that is, stay there awhile longer while the rest of the CO comes back)! (: Should totally maximise the extra time there with some good shopping! (:(:

Cant wait for everything to be over and hop onto that lil' airplane and fly to faraway land! (:

(Yes you know im so sick of everything now. - Another angsty teen.)

2011-07-24T12:35:00.001+08:00

Something similar. Hm, 有时候那些说不出口的话，就用写的吧？

And im dying to know is it killing you like it's killing me.

2011-07-22T19:00:00.025+08:00

Fits the context of this week, yeh? Week B's so horrible and prolly drained everything out of everyone, BUT TGIF WE'VE SURVIVED (Y)! (:

What i really need now is ALOT of sleep (despite the fact that i just woke up from my long nap im still feeling sleepyyyyy and i should get started on my weekend assignments like now)! Oh wait did i just remind myself of that stack of papers that is as high as mountain iswaiting for me? .__.

It's 109 more days and im starting to have negative thoughts, like whether im really ready for the big 'A's, ready to compete with the other prestigious colleges all over Singapore, or even whether the college will actually ask me to u-turn because my mids was still kinda underperforming (if you take into account the college's expectation of me and the hardwork i'd put in during the June holidays).

Argh no negative thoughts please! I WILL SURVIVE! 화이팅!

♥

2011-07-19T18:25:00.001+08:00

Harpeee day today! :D To the extent that even Econs and fire drill were fun! (:

Yayee you know why! Okay more like you know who. :D

But first time i missed 6 trains at AMK! Though it's cause of train-fault and it's more packed than usual, but still, SIAO! I know right!

ANYWAY, i think im really benefitting from my tuition because i like Econs more now (BECAUSE I CAN DO/APPLY/ANSWER ESSAY QUESTIONS WITH THE APPROPRIATE CONTENT/DIAGRAMS LIKE FINALLY)! Zz, becoming more like a true-blue arts student day by day. .__.

Right, now back to my chem papersssssss. (This is so anti-climax dont you think so!)

2011-07-17T17:05:00.002+08:00

My mealtimes are so screwed up now, especially so now that im trying to tune everything back for long term sake. :/ Keep feeling hungry at the wrong time, and this slight pain if i happen to eat more than what i normally have. Serve me right. I NEED TO STOP SKIPPING MEALS AND IM NOT ANOREXIC! It's always just too busy/no appetite/moodswing. :/ Like now.

2011-07-15T22:25:00.002+08:00

Need ~~some~~ alot of miracles right now! :( For many aspects actually. If only we get to photoshop the not-so-ideal parts in our lives. :/

God please dont go on holiday now like my tuition tutor please?

Don't You Remember.

2011-07-14T22:25:00.024+08:00

Me is sucha loser. You were just right infront of me! :( Same for yesterday too, from afar, imagining all the conversations we'd never have. So many things to say but clueless on where to start. Our eyes met but each time i'd to force myself to look away because right now i've to focus. Because im afraid once my eyes caught yours im gonna plunge in deeper and could not exert any self-control. Oh man those eyes! Those sparkling, mystery eyes that caused me to melt at first sight dont they? (: And i cant believe im saying this, but because i dont know what do we call us now. How/why did i let things turn out this way, fighting the urge to tell you everything under the sun like we used to.

Like we used to.

WAIT NOW IS NOT THE TIME TO THINK ABOUT THIS. 117 DAYS GONNA BE HERE BEFORE YOU KNOW IT, 'NA!

Damn i really miss you loads (and i hope you'd see this), both physically as well as emotional support. So many things, everything seems to be falling apart yet i cant bring myself to tell anyone else what's happening, and im right here without you. :(

I should just go and sleep right now.

The teachers dont lie, huh? They said term 3 will be super duper fast, and week 3's ending even though it's just the official week 1 of lectures/tutorials.

Tuesion!

2011-07-09T22:40:00.008+08:00

Had my first JC (private) tuition this afternoon! (: The ride to his house at Tampines took 1 hr 45 mins! LOL, so long! But he said he's taking turns to come my house so it's a fair deal i guess? :D Was rather apprehensive initially, i mean i havent met him before and im going his house, quite awkward eh? Thank God he's quite friendly (and chatty), and our age are quite close so we hit it off well. *Phew*

And he's quite good i think? (: At first when i asked Pei for opinion, she's like, "HUH! He's just a university student, 21 years old, you sure can teach not?" Though not yet "nirvana" but still, :D He was once a relief teacher in NY last year too, so he knows what's required and so on, with good explanation, skills, tips, extra notes etc. Though i still think it's quite freaky how he's able to read my mind, :O

Omg tomorrow's sunday already! :O Why good/relaxing times pass so quickly! :(

2011-07-07T23:55:00.008+08:00

(Above) Kinda miss my messy hair (kinky with dry, split ends LOL!). It's straight and silky now but the amount of conditioner and liese hair cocktail i've to spam regularly. :/ I.am.damn.lazy.thanks.

Out with Zeng and Pei today! :D No school on a school-day, damn awesome! :D Let's Sweet Japanese dessert buffet for brunch but... i just like (all) their strawberry desserts. .__. Spaghetti, pizzas everything were so-so. Go there should just eat their desserts LOL! (: OHHHHH and all the red bean/mochi-related ones! Likeeeee!

Shop like maddd tooooo! When bananas go shopping, we'll go bananas! (: Spent $75+ at Faceshop, Bugis and Orchard. Meowz. Heehee.

Gonna catch Transformers tomorrow with HT! (: And more food and shopping! Prolly the last trip till Alevel ends i know i know. (: When monday comes, it'll bring along months and tons of work. So chillax for now! (:

YAYEEE MYE'S OVERRRRRRR! (:

2011-07-06T21:00:00.000+08:00

Bananas we're going for real awesome shopping and desserts tomorrow! (:

Love this week! Weekday = 1 day, weekend = 6 days!

2011-07-05T18:40:00.000+08:00

Really meh? I thought it's because you miss them too much, hahah! I dont believe but we cant deny the reliability of the source (too much history SBQ). :/

So envious of those around you; your classmates, family. :( At least they get to spend more time by your side. Cant remember when was the last time we'd a proper FTF conversation? .__. I've so many things to tell you i think im gonna literally have a list soon. Each time i see you it's "Heyy!" *smile* *overwhelmed with excitement and forgot all i want to say* Damn. Im so afraid time/distance will get the better of us because we seem to be so busy nowadays, :(

It's 6.40pm now and im already counting down for 5pm tomorrow. Nothing gets into my head anymore so im gonna close all books, stop thinking rubbish about korkor, change my bedspread and jump into bed at 8pm.

2011-07-03T10:25:00.002+08:00

Feeling lazy today (both the dog and i).

Lying around at any possible places at home. .__. Aftermath of a bad headache? Hahah. Felt really terrible last night and basically threw up everything that went down my oesophagus for dinner (apparently didnt get digested after 2-3hrs). Thankfully i managed to conk out at 9pm+. (:

Procrastinating 'bout studying today. It's always like this, the motivation for revision is proportional to the number of days/papers left. :/ Lazy sunday. (:

Rolling In the Deeeeep.

2011-07-01T20:00:00.000+08:00

So sorry for the lack of updates! (: This whole week was packed with papers, and my period just had to coincide with this eventful week (with a hint of sarcasm if you didnt realise), which it did nothing positive but worsen my crankiness, lower my productivity and focus... meowz.

This time round i think my humanities gonna score higher than my sciences. Manz, :( Nooooo i dont wanna turn into a true blue arts students! :( I wanna be like, both. :D Math's my best but this year the department's kinda harsh on us. :"(

On the bright side, now i've 4 days at home to prepare for my last 2 papers on wednesday, and i'll declare myself a free soul when all gets over and done with. For the time being at least. (:

You had my heart inside your hand. And you played it to the beat.

2011-06-24T23:11:00.004+08:00

Pretty jellyfishes, you guys remind me of him. (:

This whole month i'd to imagine his presence his smell his voice his eyes his smile, to keep myself sane from all the books.

Hold Your Own, Know Your Name, Go Your Own Way.

2011-06-24T00:50:00.001+08:00

I like to sing or hum along to myself at random moments. (:

Hmm anyway just a sudden/random thought, i think my level of maturity changes depending on who im with, hahah! Especially if i feel really comfortable with you because i trust you well enough, it will drop till like negative infinity? (: Now you know where you stand on my list, :D

Goooooooodnight loves!

Lesson Learnt The Hard Way.

2011-06-22T21:50:00.003+08:00

Still feeling really upset over my lost thumbdrive. :(

When it contains several word documents that are too personal (i tend to type out what's on my mind when im feeling moody so i can organise my thoughts), as well as important lecture notes, sighz.

The person who took it, is so gonna accumulate lotsa bad karma! :( And it's a fellow NYJCian! Disappointed max, where's the schoolmate love? :( Though i just hope he/she is not too kaypo and go through all my files sigh, that's more important. Other than that i'll just take it that i donated it.

Gonna try to keep my new thumbdrive empty as far as possible now. And remember to backup important notes omgg.

2011-06-20T00:05:00.022+08:00

WANT!

I just need the lights to make mine complete! Omgg they're so prettaye! (:(:

Flash!

2011-06-19T15:50:00.000+08:00

CO concert yesterday not bad, but could be better! (: Shant talk about the bad points, but omgg their 管乐's really strong! Especially for 《刘三姐》! Brought back memories from primary 1 where PCPS showed us 刘三姐 movie during Assembly! (: Oh and the CO played Chopin's Etude Op.10 No.3 too! Yayness, my favourite! (:

The venue (NUS UCC) not bad, but abit too far, hahah! Was on the bus for 1 hour 45 mins, omgg. Felt like i went to Malaysia cause the journey was so long and i'd no idea where i was! But i passed by Whampoa! Finally know where it is! :D Cutie pie Shukree lives there! (: Awww, miss the kids from both Bridgining Programme and Kidsperforming! (:

Okay i've sidetracked. Anyway the entrance and foyer of UCC totally felt like grand hotel (hence add on to the Malaysia feel), but the theatre's really small so it's really not suitable for CO concert, heehee. (: But we're all so proud of Mingwei! Soloist eh! (: 我们家 Mingwei 长大了! (:

Before i end i MUST say this, omg! I took the train home with Sun Chang, and though the train ride's about 16 stops but still, it's so much faster than bus! :( Manz, regret. :/

Exactly 1 more week to Mids!

:(

2011-06-16T21:00:00.001+08:00

My right eye has been swollen for the past 987654321 days and it seems to be getting worst. :( And it was the first thing Huiyi and Corliss saw when we met in school yesterday. :(

2011-06-16T20:45:00.001+08:00

Everything that was fought for came to nothing, 'cept for a new set of problems, uncertainties and disappointment, together with more delusions and unrealistic expectations.

2011-06-13T14:50:00.004+08:00

Just came back from a last minute lunch-date with my bestfriends! :D ♥♥ That's one good thing about living in the same area! (: Just a random phone call and off we go! (: Zeng and Pei, i love you two! (:

Oh! Last night's GE concert was really impressive! :D They did a very good job for 《觅》, 《第三二胡狂想曲》 and 《梁山伯与祝英台》! Looked forward to these 3 pieces since the day i received my ticket! (:(: And they played Chopin's Etude Op.10 No.3 as the encore OMGOMG! Awesome! :D

Okay okay im not going out anymore except for 1 more CO concert with Sun Chang this saturday! Manz, 3rd week of holidays already! Time flies when you're having a good time hahaha! Zzz need to absorb all the essence of history and econs for the remaining 2 weeks! :(

Just Breathe!

2011-06-12T11:45:00.002+08:00

Im (still) scared. But thanks for being there, (:

2011-06-08T23:50:00.010+08:00

Had lotsa fun with my section mates at ECP this afternoon! (: Havent been under the sun nor cycled for a long long time. (: The sea breeze and cold wind while cycling... JUSTSHIOKZTOTHEMAX! (: Proud to be the photographer of the day as well! Photos are all uploaded onto FB by the way! (: And we had dinner at this Hongkong restaurant with a live band, first experience and it was really good! (:

xoxo.

Post-Work Syndrome.

2011-06-07T11:00:00.000+08:00

Im still having this american slang after hanging out with the kids for the past few days, hmm.

And im missing them right now. :( In my head, i hear the kids screaming and running around, me shouting "HIPHOP KIDS STANDBY (to go on stage)!", them asking me questions non-stop...

2011-06-06T20:25:00.002+08:00

Hope Concert was a great success! (: Praise Lord! The cutie pies did a really wonderful job! ♥

My first experience helping out backstage for a public concert (and was not school-related), i really learnt alot, made lotsa friends (though most of them are from NY), and had lotsa fun with the kids these 5 days! (: My 2nd and prolly the best and meaningful holiday job ever! :D

Heartfelt thanks to the other 2 ALOs who were in-charged of Hip Hip kids as well! (: I had to handle 24 kids on Day 1 all by myself and i say it was really difficult! (:

Still feeling a lil' sleepy now though (even though i slept in today), cause i only slept for 2 hours and survived 26 hours of work/kids/running around SOTA over the weekend! Hahah im the survivor! (Y)

And go round and round and round in the circle game.

(Not) Insomnia.

2011-06-05T02:50:00.051+08:00

Dont ask me why im here at 2.50am on a sunday morning. :( Reached home at 12 midnight last night (or rather this morning), cause we had to do paper tech. for the concert after rehearsal when the kids left in the evening. :( But we're told that we'll be paid more than what was agreed previously, so (Y)! (:

So today's the concert! (: Which means it's my last day at work! (: God, please let the 2 shows (at 3pm and 7.30pm) be successful! (: The kids had worked really hard for this concert! (: Gonna take photos with the kids too later! (:

I feel so tired now though. :( I just slept for 2 hours after running around for 11 hours and im leaving house at 6.45am later so i cant go back to sleep now. Think im gonna be home tonight after the clock strikes 12 again too. :/ Wish me luck! (:

xoxo.

Dont you think some of us are living the wrong era?

2011-06-02T23:25:00.000+08:00

What's yours?

HELLO, JUNE!

2011-06-01T00:00:00.017+08:00

A month that's gonna be made up of (mostly) revisions, 胡琴 outing and 2 CO concerts (with Leroy and Sun Chang respectively)! (: With lotsa good food too, eggciting much! (:

:D

2011-05-30T23:45:00.001+08:00

But damn sleepy now im gonna fall asleep anytime soon. @.@

2011-05-29T22:10:00.005+08:00

(Forgot to blog about this!) The J1s prepared this 红星大奖 section during the PoP for the J2s, with awards like 最爱变奖, 最文静奖, 最 lame 奖, 最大声奖, 最有母爱奖, 最低调奖, 裤子最紧奖, 最爱 refill water bottle 奖... all the weird categories, hahah! And i've got 最 lag 奖. LOL! Why they so cute! (:

Anywayssssss, just called up 20+ kids' parents to ask about the costumes for wednesday's rehearsal, did some online shopping, and watched the nice ending for Glee season 2! Happygal93@home.com now! Get to start next week on the right study mood for MYEs / work-mood, (: Bring it on, babeh!

KidsPerforming.

2011-05-29T11:45:00.002+08:00

First day of work yesterday. (: Actually i dont see it as 'work' though, more like a learning experience, because what im doing now is something similar to my dream of becoming an event planner (wedding planner). (:

Lists of programmes, phone numbers, names, costumes check... o.O But most importantly, im working with children! (: Though this is much worst than Bridging Programme because there's like 200+ kids! :O

But omg, for children as young as 3-year-olds to be performing 12-13 items for a concert with songs lyrics and dance steps memorised well at the tips of their fingers, i think they're soooooooooo AWESOME! (: Most of them are angmohs, and even pure Chinese were borned in Australia etc! :O Oh they have all these cute lil' group names like Twinkle Stars, Broadway Kids, Narnians, Sugar & Spice, Lil' Divos, 121 Vocals, (:

Oh by the way some were asking me how i got myself into this. Hmm, ok so here it goes, Kamalia and i happened to be 'friends' on FB, then one day i saw her post asking for people to help out at her sister's production company, so i told myself, "Yeah im gonna get myself into this! It's just 5 days, and im gonna work with children you know!" So i approached her (just to ask for details initially), and im in! (:

First time doing something alone, but hey i made friends with Kamalia's secondary school friend, Ajriani, even before we reached Goodman Arts Centre! (: I got lost and i saw this girl in the same dress code, so yeah! (: And AJ happens to know my secondary school friend as well cause now they're in the same JC! What a small world! (: Found out that there's 5 more NY people there too, 4 of them happened to be in my History lecture! (: So im kinda not 'alone', even though all of them knew each other beforehand. (:

Feels like im dying after just day 1, but not regretting at all! (:

Filmfest 2011!

2011-05-27T23:25:00.003+08:00

It was an awesome night with 胡琴! (: 'Backtrack' and '画中情' were the nicest i think! (: Backtrack was the twist of emotions that touched the audience i believe, i didnt even realise i teared the moment they said the grandpa died long ago. The latter was the superb acting by this girl from my history lecture! If you've watched 聊斋, the feel was something like that, and that girl seriously did a marvelous job! (:

Anyway just something "worth mentioning", all of us went to support Andre and his 'Blood Ties', but apparently he went for his driving test tonight instead. .__. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZ. Our next 胡琴's dinner shall be Andre's treat, hahahah! (:

Okie dokes i gotta sleep now i've work tomorrow! (: It's some backstage helper for this children's concert thingy for just 5 days. More info next time! Nights and sweet dreams, lovelies!

NYCO 庆功 and PoP!

2011-05-26T14:30:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was the day where NYCO 10/11 came together as a whole for the last time! (: Had lotsa fun, laughter, jokes, AND PHOTOS! :DDDD Camwhored (what's new?) with my lovely section mates (again)! :D I realised i couldnt get myself to camwhore with other people except for them hahaha! :P

I was really touched by the things the new CO exco did for all the J2s; the step-down ceremony, surprises, video, the phone charm that says "NYCO'11 GOLD WITH HONOURS", and the things my section did for us especially, the cards and photos and.. everything! And the TICs for the niceeeee buffet/tea-session (especially ÉCLAIR!)! (:

Anyway, it's NY-holiday today! For good Alevel results (Y) thank you seniors! (: Anyway gotta be back to my GP now, it's the start Mid-years tomorrow (on the last day of school, LOL!). (:

(Just random rants) I've a math supplementary and makeup history lecture after my GP paper. :( BUT there's dinner with my section mates in the evening and NY FILMFEST 2011! :D Okay cant wait for the events-filled friday! Toodles! :D

OMG!

2011-05-23T20:20:00.007+08:00

Embarrassing day, most probably karma hahah! :P

(1) Went for mass-printing of notes at the computer lab today. TOTALLY FORGOT TO CHANGE THE PRINTER SETTINGS! So all my notes came out single-side. It was as thick as our Econs lecture booklet (for just 7 documents), and the girl queueing behind me was rather impatient but still managed to smile at me when i kept apologising to her. :P I was like laughing next to the printer because i was at a total lost, and Mr tham got a shocked when he saw his printer couldnt stop printing for like 5mins!

(2) I walked into this uncle at the MRT station and i bounced off his tummy HAHAHHAHA! :P He was really angry though, oppsie! Still quite mad even though i kept apologising. My bad for not looking where i was walking. :P

Right, now back to work on the surprise for my section mates, (:

2011-05-21T20:50:00.008+08:00

Japanese buffet @ Tarafuku restaurant this afternoon. :D Looooooove their desserts more than their food, hahah! Milk pudding caramel pudding mocha cake strawberry cake icecream! (:(: But they have really awesome spicy fries! (: Didnt get to try their chawanmushi though, toooo full! :P

Long time i'd so much fun chillin' out ever since SYF. (:

Happy now like the smiley balloon i'd received wheeeee! :D

2011-05-20T20:45:00.000+08:00

Will we ever say the words we’re feeling
Reach down underneath and tear down all the walls
Will we ever have a happy ending
Or will we forever only be pretending
Will we a-a-a-always a-a-a-always a-a-a-always be pretending.

Actually, i was (am) feeling very upset today. :( Some things, :(

Behind that smile, im actually afraid. I dont wanna just be your acquaintance/hi-bye-"friend". I've got lots of things to tell you, but each time i see you i just blank-out cause i dont know what to say anymore or know what's appropriate because i dont know what you're thinking/feeling. Before you, im fighting to hide my emotions. This isnt how it's supposed to be. :/

Few more hours to my japanese food!

Rants.

2011-05-19T23:05:00.005+08:00

Time check: 2305h.

On my bed right now, finally completed all my assignments. :( (: Thursday always feel like the most tiring day of the week, so near to weekend yet there's still a Friday. :/ Too tired right now my eyes are half-opened (i cant even be bothered to pack my bag now).

It's a looooooong day tomorrow cause of extra lessons (to complete the syllabus at least). :( Damn, can i just skip morning PE tomorrow to sleep a lil' bit longer? :(

I just want saturday to come now so i can have my japanese food and chill out yo.

Mr Kwek 请吃饭!

2011-05-18T16:45:00.007+08:00

Mr Kwek's lunch treat for all aesthetic CCAs in the hall today! (: Awesome stuff, but most importantly, had lotsa fun with my section mates again AND PHOTOS YAYEE! :D Besides me on (really bad) sugar rush today, i think im always damn high with the CO people hahah! You cant see that (extreme) side of me when im with my classmates LOL! :P

Hmm anyway sidetrack a little, 4 people said my new backpack looks like a candycane; 1 said it looks like kueh lapis, though they all said it's nice, but i feel damn bimbo right now. :/ Bought it in desperate yesterday cause i couldnt find a nice full BLACK one. :( Tsk, i shall be the candycane girl for the rest for 2011.

I MISS YOU. :( So much to say, ~~no time to say~~ dont know what to say.

Big Boys Dont Cry.

2011-05-17T18:15:00.002+08:00

"You were just the catalyst for opening up my tear glands..."

Hahah im still kinda in shock, first time i make a guy cry at 2am. :O JUST KIDDING! (: Dont be upset anymore ok! (: And dont be stressed up you still have meeeeeeeee! :D Keep the faith!

2011-05-15T18:30:00.000+08:00

2011-05-14T23:11:00.009+08:00

Happened to see this on Fake NYJC twitter! (: Honoured much! :D

The One.

2011-05-14T20:20:00.002+08:00

Good job to Izzie and friends last night! (: Hot Mess's awesome! Congrats! (: